Modern Romance

They say love faulters. So why do we even take it to the alter? We are fueled by hope. And probably high off dope. It's like playing tug of war with an invisible rope. Cause you'll tug and tug but you won't know how far you've came. Until you're lying on your back in agony and pain. Now your heart skips a beat whenever you hear their name. You can't sleep at night without thinking about them. Where they've been who they're seeing and if they're feelings are getting dim. You want to make it work but those chances are slim. Because of this thing called ego and fear of retribution. You start to pray and get back to hoping to find a solution. Those dreams of your future must have been an illusion. Life as you know it is not making sense. Scraping for dollars makes it more intense. Now you ask why is love the cause of all this. Cause you just wanted the life you always invisioned. Late nights early mornings filled with reminiscing. Just send the first text saying that you miss em. 

Cause I just can't do this any more
I don't wanna feel this way anymore.

Soft-spoken

You are so soft-spoken.
My soul has been re-awoken.
Tell me what's on your mind and where you're goin'.
I need to be in your presence.
You don't need to second guess it.
Cause I'm only bringing what you need, what you want is just a bonus. I know you feel it too go ahead and own it. This is real life business.
Can't be playin' with my feelins'.
What type of hand is destiny dealin'? Cause the way I see it, you're the best hand I've hand in a minute. I'll stay, I'm not hittin'. You can take that as a vivid description. But honestly it's just me speaking bluntly. My thoughts stuck on you like honey.
You don't care about the money. I see you do it for yourself. So if you have a someone else. That's just lingering around. Do yourself a favor and put him down. Cause I'm ready to give you the crown. And we can keep it underground. And if it gets mainstream, we'll just live it like a dream.

May Weather

I guess I'm just the fool right? Can't ever seem to get my feelins right. You the reason I was tryna own my life. Started making racks every month and you just up and left. What you need, I thought I gave you the best? Is this like some kind of test? Took a shot in the chest without any vest. I'm about to flip my lid. All that I did for you and you still wanna act like a kid? You making things real hard on me mentally. It wasn't til later on when I thought we were meant to be. And you can't blame me for that, I'm just speaking facts. Why find yourself alone when we can do it together. Dodge the pain and avoid hits like Mayweather. Keep it hot like May weather. Help me count all my cheddar.  Do you remember on my bed summer of 2016 what you said? You said you'd always be here. You said I'd have nothing to fear. That was the best damn lie. I don't know why I'm sittin' here acting all surprised. One of us should win an Emmy. Forget it man, let me take a sip of this Henny. 

These Words

Excuse me, but this is my fault.
I should have said something from the start.
But ego and pride kept me from spilling my heart.
You have always been what I've wanted.
Every time I see you my eyes glow and I have to say somethin'.
You're hotter than the leather seats in July. When I'm gonna be in your presence I have to get fly.
And see I'm happy for your man, but you need to understand. The moment he don't cherish what he got, that boy need be dropped.
He need be making you happy at all costs. Cause if not, I'll swing on by and take you to your favorite spot.
We can laugh and smile, I'll listen when you talk. I'll give you my time cause really that's all we got. Money comes and go but what I feel for you is tattooed. I got a feeling  that maybe one day my early wishes will come true. It's a shame I didn't let my voice be heard. So I write my pain with these words.

Tis the Season

Look what love do.
I said you were the love of my life and you said the same too.
I've been blessed ah-choo.
The Lord placed an angel in my life.
I didn't even have to scratch and fight.
I had to endure some alone times,
but then like poof you appeared. Readily prepared to wipe my tears.
You come in my presence and I've never been more caviler. Like I'm out in Cleveland.
Girl, what are you doing this evening? I can go for a good eatin'. And you know tis the season.
I don't need to give many reasons. I know you on the other side of the phone cheesin'. Whoever had you last messed up they should have never leased it. I'll bring my duffel bag and buy it all in cash. Try every day to make you laugh. That smile sends me to space. And those lips always make me want a taste. Are you my soulmate?

Suicidal Knife

I'm focused on you and only you.
I don't care what they say or want me to do. They clearly have never met a woman that can change their life.
Or be the reason to make you want to stay alive. That's deep real deep right?
But I can go deeper if you like.
Like a suicidal knife.
One straight through the eye.
And on the off chance I make it, you'll be my sight.
I'll follow your beauty.
And love you endlessly cause that's my duty. You are a work of art truly.
And me I'm just trying to admire. I pray your feelings never expire. I'll always add fuel to the fire. You're my number one desire. And how could you not be. You don't try and copy. You do your own thing and you're never sloppy. I'm so glad you got me.

Private

Get lost in lust, or fall in love.
Either way I wouldn't mind any of the above. Especially with you cause you bring the right passion.
You not settling in life you want things to happen.
You're smile is so stunning. You got all the boys running.
You say come and they all reply "coming!"
You got it like that and I just love it.
Pull you by your hair I know you want it.
But what goes on in private I'll keep between us. I gotta keep one thing and that's the trust.
So whatever I say please believe me.
Telling you my feelings is never quite easy.
But if my words do enough to make you smile. Then I'll go ahead and talk for a while. Ask you how your day was before I lay you down. Take a load off your mind and ease your stress. You've probably had good but know I'm the best.