Out My Door

Feeling like I never felt.
More than just another notch on my belt.
I don't know what can help.
Anybody feel the way I feel? (Phone rings)
Got a call must be another bill.
I'm just talking to my guys like they're Dr. Phil.
Stay plottin' and I always keep it real.
Something some women don't know how to feel.
I can show you the light.
Chances are you'll still be blind.
I remember when you were all mine.
Conversations from 9 to 9.
We would help each other with our grinds.
Then we start drifting apart.
The strings were pulling my heart
I couldn't take it no more
So I let you out my door.
And you let me walk out yours

How Were Your Top Five Shots Of The Year?

This was epic. Sean's face says it all.

Shoot with Alan Brown. Had just got this sweater and its legendariness had to be documented properly.

Was so sad to see Marjan leave but her yacht going away party healed a bit of the pain. Probably the best celebration of the year.

A delightful surprise after SG Lewis killed the stage. This girl is talented.

Of course, Queen Nila is top five everything!

Love Struck. 2018

Need the Keys

Are we ever gonna get it right?
And by we I mean me.
I can include you too but see,
how could I blame someone with your beauty?
We each have to learn some things.
I can't describe all the things I've seen.
But after seeing you I can guarantee that pictures of you are just a tease.
Forget what you want, what about what you need?
Lord listen, right now I'm on my knees.
I'm trying to tell you something everyone needs to believe.
Nobody's perfect, but she might be perfect for me.
Life throws curveballs and I just want to hit them all.
That could be why I'm on strike.
If you have no drive, you're not right for my life.
Get left quick like a jab from Mike.
Not Jackson but Tyson.
You want my last name, I'll let you keep yours just add the hyphen.
Can I tell you the truth?
Doors close for new ones to open, who knew?
But yours is locked I need to find the key soon.

This View

I wish you could see this view.

It's so beautiful, you know, it reminds me of you.

But that's just what all gorgeous things do.

There really isn't a thing to dispute.

They can say what they want.

But the hate and doubt shall never be enough. 

Nothing can steer me from your path. 

Not an army or all of your past's wrath. 

Any baggage you have, I'll claim it.

Who am I to shame it?

I promise time won't be wasted. 

I got enough affection for the world, can you take it?

I haven't heard your voice in a minute. 

It's almost like a choir rendition. 

The heavens open when you speak.

I'm usually meek and discrete.

But you, I'll show the world too.

Tell me how you feel and let me know if that's coo'. 

A Perfect Blend

Today's a weird day for me.
See ordinarily, I wouldn't see you this way.
I remember the past and all my mistakes.
Now you're just a cute face passing by.
But no, not today.
Today you're all the rage.
Today you make a blind man see your beauty.
I can stare into your eyes longer than those Star Wars movies.
I need a straw you're my smoothie.
A perfect blend of all I ever wanted and admired.
Independent with a burning passion and desire.
The way you talk is so addicting so I'm hanging on to every word.
I wanna fly with you, be up high with the birds.
I know what happened in the past was so absurd.
But today is a weird day, got people looking down on me from heaven.
I'll never forget December seventh.

Pen Skills

"The cycles like a windmill.
I had a convo with my soul I asked it 'When will, this shit change?'
It said boy 'Just use them pen skills'"
Wise words that I always feel.
But I must question if what I felt with was real.
Or did you even feel at all?
Will you pick up if I call?
... Probably not.
Let me stop.
We're two different people now.
I know this but nostalgic memories always come back in style.
I can't help how my mind works.
I hope you never get hurt.
I pray you always get what you deserve.
We talk then disappear from each other's consciousness.
But I always think about everything like I'm omnipotent.
So you never really leave my mind.
And I'm over here just wondering why..

One reason to do it.

America State of Mind

Thank you, Joyner Lucas, for that...

How did we end up here? 

A question that isn't easily answered ordinarily.

But no, today our wonders are put to rest immediately. 

And I hate how you act like some type of Deity.

It's insane how so many can be outraged and sad.

I'm not saying names but let's state some facts. 

I may not be the smartest on the topic or an experT.

But you're starting to act like the JokeR.

You think you're good for us but you really ain't like tofU.

I swear we're getting closer to our dooM.

Someone get this man some new makeuP.

And to those who still walk with him, good luck. 

 

Accept this

Done looking for acceptance.
I don't need you to accept this.
Just don't say I didn't warn you, so you should expect it.
Expect the ground shaking like a 6.0.
I promise you'll feel it like the sun rays in Cabo.
Don't snitch, no 5-0.
This is for you to understand.
For you to know you were dealing with the man.
But you let it fall through like your feet in quicksand.
There are no hard feelins',
Cupid dealt the deck and was lazily dealin'.
Livin' in the moment is the only potion I have for the healin'.
So now its big business and dream stealin'.
Meaning I'll achieve it even if they try and take it.
This life is what you make it.
I wish you well, just never thought I'd have to say this...

Was it me?

I can't seem to put my finger on it.
Baby, where you been or rather where you goin'?
We used to chill all the time.
I used to always write you rhymes.
There's a subtle difference between being ignored and actually not having time.
When you text me I always would reply.
Things ain't the same when I hit your line.
What changed, was it me?
Who's to blame, this crazy society?
I remember when that weapon of mass destruction between your thighs was mine.
One press of a button and we were at war.
I had these other broads waitin' in line.
Girl you had me to my core.
Should I elaborate more?
Or was what we once had a learning experience deleted?
One that we'll never have completed.

Thoughts of Us

I swear when I see you, I see the most beautiful girl I've laid my eyes on.
You're worth more than a lease or just a fitting room try on. 
I got two shoulders if you ever need any to cry on. 
And the way you dress, you always get your fly on. 
Thank your mother and father for me, please. 
They gave birth to an amazing queen. 
You look so good you should be on every TV screen, billboard, and all the magazines. 
Not to mention you truly inspire me. 
Working hard so I can help you fulfill your dreams. 
But I know you're putting in work too, a man is the last thing you need. 
But I swear you're my destiny. 
In due time we'll be where we need to be. 
We go together like diamonds and Tiffany's. 
How big of a rock you want on your ring?
Ha, I know, you and me both are such a tease.
But the world is ours, I can't wait for everyone to see. 

Jx Did The Beat

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NOLA

Met you in NOLA.
But you're from Arkansas or Texas or something.
I had you for that special moment.
You were mine my attention you stole it.
In a room full of crowded possibilities, you were the one that stood out to me.
And really what were the chances.
Me feeling like this I couldn't have planned it.
I'll fly you out for a weekend if that's cool with your man. 5 years together I'm sure he'll understand.
Darlin' I'm playing.
I'm just an optimistic thinker. Ive been growing up and becoming more of a leader.
Leaving alone the ones that got a home.
Cause I'm sure deep down they don't really condone.
But those be the ones that get me attracted. Even though I know the consequences are massive. Is it a fear of attachment.

Y.A.S.

You are, the ultimate inspiration.
Thoughts of you always get me liberated.
Grindin' just to put us in the best situation.
And I don't think about penetration.
It's your smile and your spirit that I'm really praisin'.
Anybody disrespect and its hell I'm raisin'.
You believe in me and I believe you. So I'm over here tryna make dreams come true.
I just want a table for two. To discuss everything we want and everything that we're due.
You deserve the world and it ain't no secret. Well wishes from my exes tell em' they can keep it. You know it's you I see when I'm dreamin'. Believe it believe it you better.
Cause nobody do it better.
I couldn't ever- compare you? Ha, Never.
I earned my stripes I'm looking like a zebra.  These other dudes spotty, they lookin' like some cheetahs.
I'm on the prowl for that precious smile.
A million miles girl I'll walk it now. And when I come around you know I'll hold it down.
You a queen let me hand you the crown.

Lovely Day

Bleed for you.
Out of breath, I'll breathe for you.
Sun get to bright I'll be the shade for you.
No more problems cause I'm your solution. Learn from me I'll be your institution.
Our love is in the air, no more pollution.
You and I alone can be the green team. Out due the pain and negativity. Hustle for the love we're the new dream team.
They call you your highness my queen.
They say divide and conquer.
but You and I we unite and foster.
And to the fatherless daughters, I hope you remember the club every night won't get you to the alter.
The creeping while he's sleeping clearly isn't that wise. Cause it's facts that love is patient and love is kind. Virtues that should be practiced world wide. So do me a favor and look your spouse, child and neighbors in the eye, let them know it's all love and let the hate go with the tide.
I pray one day for that lovely day. Lord please in your name I pray.. for that lovely day.

Remorse

It's like oh ten at my brother's crib and I'm in love with Caiti.

And I still care cause I wouldn't mind getting to call her baby.

Yeah, I know this might sound crazy and I need to move forward.

But lately,  I've been craving more. 

And what we had was cut short and I felt all the remorse.

Maybe I'm looking for more potential. 

Or someone with more credentials. 

Is it too cliche to say I still think of what could have been?

I always keep it one hundred, never 50 cent. 

But I'm not looking for power. 

Not opening up would make me a coward. 

So when you get this don't let it live in your mind. 

I just wanted to tell you I wondered if you stayed mine. 

 Is it such a crime? 

Who's Choice

Let's get high tonight that's how I should start each of our conversations.
cause without a puff our mental states still get elevated.
its always something new so now whats the situation?
We don't have to play just the tip or know who else we played with.
all the drama we can save it.
Our problems were Goliath but I'm down to be David.
I know what I wanna say I just wish I knew how to say it. So many obstacles just to get through to you.
I'm more Usain Bolt I haven't practiced the hurdles to tell the truth. Eyes on the gold I don't know what else to do. I got a new girl but Im still alone and confused.
Never thought I'd feel this way when I was 22. But Trav just hit me up with some money moves I guess that gave my mood a boost.
Who's choice is it ever to want to lose? Before you answer that don't speak too soon. Cause the split was mutual so I lost one and you lost too.

Stumbled

Walking through foggy days and misty nights.
Dreams of flying higher than a 8 year olds kite.
Deceptive wings try and attach but they only impede.
The direction they go in just don't agree with me.
I've stumbled.
Powerless on my back you hover above blocking the sun's beams.
Your taste far exceeds and brings joy like an herbivore in a land full of green.
But where shall we go?
Off into infinity but only we both agree.
Our souls both starved but I'm eager to feed.
Not only am I flying but my wants are satisfied not just my needs. And this exchange is mutual.
You've been waiting for the fresh open air but no ones been suitable.
But we both know your more than a pair of expendable delicacies.
An angel in disguise is all I see.

Cycles

What's the difference when you feel the same?
Should I be liberated or feel ashamed?
They say life goes in cycles.
And that when you're alone and styfled,
You'll always have that one person.
No matter the pain they'll be there til' it stops hurtin'.
They never call it curtains.
Time flies, plenty byes, and teary eyes.
But the way you made me feel was one of a kind.
So I just ask why?
Why we even let the cycle begin.
I said no first then you said no again.
Are we better off as friends?
I can't get this out of my mind.
It's just a classic case of right person wrong time

Yearning

Close your eyes if you can feel it.
I guarantee you are now a witness.
As the days get heated and stamina gets depleted your conversations are all that's needed.
Surviving the winter is just an obstacle.
Because making it out alone is often remarkable.
Everybody's catching cold cases.
That just makes for great excuses to see one another naked.
How long can you take it? Your soul is yearning for a greater situation. The dusk sky gives a great demonstration. On how to adapt and still make beauty. What do we want, I mean truly?
So many options.
So many follow up but can we stop them?
Wrong decisions are often shadowed by regret. Just don't send that text if you aren't prepared for what's next.

Notice it

I notice that we always catch each other's eye. Whether it's on purpose or it's by surprise.
I think we both know the thoughts going through each other's minds.
I walk by and I catch you smilin'.
Me and you need to get away on an island.
I know we have different backgrounds, but that shouldn't be a reason for us to back down.
The way you make me feel has me feelin' like a child now.
Butterflies like Michael, I'm sayin' prayers from the Bible.
Call me crazy but I'm far from psycho. When we talk you make my heart go real low.
I can feel it in my stomach.
What you servin' girl I want it. No leftovers to speak of or heat up. Promise I won't harm or mislead ya'. I got questions that I need to ask. When you see me do you think about your past? Did anyone ever do you bad? You don't have to worry anymore. This the great start you've been looking for.

Right moment

This is for my free-thinkers.
Just call this a heat seeker.
Cause you won't know its for you until it hits.
I promise it won't miss.
I swear your presence is a gift.
I should guest star on Grey's anatomy cause I got the patience.
Waiting for the right moment.
Got my cards covered, I don't wanna show them. So for now I just bluff.
Hoping that the little things are enough.
but this is only because, it seem like you got a good thing going on.
Never hesitate to hit up my phone.
We can discuss how you need a throne.
or just talk when you all alone.
I remember when I had a dollar and a dream and I thought you were out of my league.
Now I see alotta green like golf tees.
And I.. And I wanna go somewhere exotic. Maybe somewhere tropic.
But I'll settle for your mind and we can dive into any topic.
but for now I'll just sip some Stella. and just be happy that I met ya'.   

Luxury

You just gave me the juice.
I've been tryna think less about you, and more about what I would do.
If my wish came true. Cause I saw a shooting star and it was us I envisioned.
And like Daniel Craig I've been on a mission.
To make sure you never get to reminiscin' about your past or thinkin' bout any kinda competition. And that's for present tense too. So if you have any ties, don't hesitate to cut it loose. 
Ever since my eyes saw the windows to your soul. I've been plottin' on the day that we both glow. Cause apart we're sparks and once together we just might blow. Privacy is my favorite luxury. So you and me is who we can keep it between until we choose to leak.
And once it isn't so discreet. I wouldn't mind showing the world so they can see. The proper ways to treat a lady. She could be a Dodge in your eyes but I'll treat her like a Mercedes.

Wanna be

Have you met the person of your dreams.
Is everything what it really seems.
Cause life is like a movie, see
if you ain't happy you need to skip some of them scenes.
Don't hold on to dust when you can have magic.
Don't fall for lust, it always ends tragic.
Her perspective on life is oh so classic.
If the Feelins in the air, you'll wish you could grab it.
And bottle it up for life.
and just stare it for motivation
This a different type of situation
Hangin' on to every word she's sayin'.
who you really think you playin'?
better not be her.
You know she's owed what she's deserved.
Like Rih, you better get to work.
and show her all of her worth.

Better get to work
Show her all her worth.
You wanna be her man
Better get to work
and your all hers.

Inspirational

Aint been another like her.
God's gift to the whole Earth.
She got the power in her hands damn
She got the look in her eye man.
she'll take you on a new level.
she'll have you Feelin' real special.
This a different typa girl though.
Super inspirational.
she focused on the better things.
aint lookin' for no wedding ring.
and she hotter than the end of spring.
So tell me what you really bring?
to the table, if you ain't got nothin you need to bounce.
At least some ambition, what are you about?
shes about her fam.
and she got some plans.
Like a politician, you gon' need some clout.